Greetings Earthlings. Consistency is the key to success. As so I am told and am holding onto in present reality. I shall post the most I have posted this year in one week. If that is not synonymous with my neurodivergence and need for moving targets and complicated stimuli then I don’t know what to tell you.
IN TIME FOR SUNSET:
While walking home before Maghrib (Sunset Prayer) my Bluetooth headphones ran out of juice. I was disconnected. I remember my Father telling me earlier that today was a religious holiday, which to his surprise, I knew already. Of course, I will make dua (Prayer) for everyone. I am a firm believer in Prayers. I am.
I am not here to convert or impose my belief systems on anyone nor do I desire to. I am speaking from my own experience. I am an open-source spiritual student in a way. I love to learn and seek insight into the human condition. Those closest to me, know my insatiable need to know why things are the way they are and the interconnectedness of every living being and experience we embody on our snapshot existence on this glorious Blue Planet,
Earth. Earth, She is a badass Biatch, in the best way. Putting up with all the climate and conflict fuckery. Oh, warning, I use swear words on occasion in more relaxed writing platforms, i.e this little stream of-consciousness (S.O.C going forward) styled post.
Words are one way to express ourselves. The more words in your artillery, the more “feel” you can express. Multilingual, well kudos, you can say, “I love you”, and “fuck you” in more than one language. How do you say, “It’s going to be no for me Dawg”, in Urdu? In Farsi? In Dari? In Arabic?
In case you have been living in a bubble-wrapped creator studio, Climate and Conflict are the overarching themes of humanity’s survival in 2022 and beyond. It goes without saying, Prayers are NOT enough right?
Prayers are foundational and essential if you believe. Tawakul (trusting in a Divine Plan) paired with effort and action toward a goal or betterment is a magical process. If you don’t subscribe to the word prayer because it’s too charged for you, might I suggest the word, “Intentional”? Truly wondrous when you hold a thought in your heart for something, someone, strangers, fellow humanity, our Planet, or our long-lost ones. The act of holding space for someone in your heart’s mind for their betterment is such a comforting feeling.
RELAX THE HEART WALLS
There was a time in my life a while back when I was so angry and held onto resentment that my heart was not so soft, and prayer did not come too easy for me. I realized that I was just processing and healing from old trauma that needed to be grieved and transformed into self-compassion, compassion, and forgiveness. After that, every sad song, every headline with tragedy, everything became intense. It was like my heart had a wall of scar tissue and it wanted to feel and hold space but it had no room because I had not allowed myself to feel the things I needed to feel. The day I allowed myself to truly feel everything, was the day I felt most liberated and more connected to my living experience. I know it sounds woo-hoo without all the details but I needed to give myself permission to feel everything, cry about everything, accept everything and let it go. I am so thankful for that day. That day I made a prayer to the Highest and woke up the next day with a feeling of calm and resolution, that whatever happens or does not happen, I will be okay. I leave you with some food for thought and my latest evening read.
QUESTIONS FOR REFLECTION:
Have you ever prayed for a stranger? Prayed for Humans in Conflict Zones or in distress? Have you prayed for life under the water and on the land just enduring daily harshness from our cruel practices of consumption?
Did you send someone ‘love’ from afar? *because you sensed they were going through something because you are a sensitive soul and you pick up on that kind of stuff (INFJ).
Do you pray for someone who wronged you? Someone you don’t want to reconnect with, but you have forgiven them, even if they didn’t make amends? Did it lessen the sting? Did you see them in a more vulnerable light and realize they are just in pain themselves and unaware of what they are doing? Did you send them a prayer of clarity and healing from afar? Did you wish them well?
Have you prayed for something and it came true? When everything was against you, and you were a punchline, and somehow with all the delays and setbacks you had the courage and strength to endure and you did and that was when the miracle unfolded in your life.
Did you cry happy tears in silence over small blessings in private that would be silly to others but mean so much to you?
Did you pray for yourself and your own self-compassion? Because how can you be gentle and loving towards others if you hold yourself in contempt? Did you pray for yourself? Did you forgive yourself for not knowing better?
Did you pray for a departed loved one and wish to reconnect with them in the afterlife or liminal space *(for all your spiritual folks)?
Did you pray for someone’s healing and recovery? Did you wish them ease, dignity, healing, and peace? Did you wish them strength and protection?
Did you pray for past soul mates and long-lost friends that you shared a human experience within your past and you no longer speak with due to age, life, or just the natural fading away of seasonal friends?
Did you pray for the loved ones in your dwelling today? Did you pray for the last person you called or called you? Or texted you? Did you pray for the person who popped up in your dreams?